I'll Keep Asking.

Dear friends, readers, I have a purpose in this post. And I don't want for it to come across wrongly, I'm writing this with some trepidation. Maybe even fear and trembling. I'm praying that the focus is not on me. But I also feel that I can't pass up this opportunity; That what is on my heart, I need to share. Guys, feel free to keep reading, this isn't something I'm ashamed of you seeing, and I hope it truly gets you thinking, but truly it's for the women out there, my dear sisters, my lovely friends. For the first time, I'm going to share on a taboo subject, a subject that is too covered by Hollywood, but scarcely covered rightly. Relationships. I've said it, I'm going to touch on the girl-guy relationship. I've seen far too many people settle for less. And I'm not sure if that's a plague put on by media or our culture, or maybe there's just a lack of women of noble character, or respectable guys. Either way, It saddens me that girls (and guys) let themselves come to a place of giving up or giving in. I've written this letter to my future husband, a habit I started a couple years back, but then tore them up and started over. Because when the focus is on me or all on my 'man', it's lost its focus. Stealing from a good book I read, what if a relationship isn't about making you happy, but about making you holy? Maybe I should be more focused on not who I date (or marry), but why I date or marry.

July 4th, 2016

Hi my love. This may turn into more of a rant, but I'll try to keep it tame. I was having a conversation with someone this week, following the events of the last letter, trying to say/explain why I would turn down or say no to a guy who had showed interest in me. It was stated,  "Well at least you know what you're looking for. But you may never find that." To which I said, it's true. Maybe they are right, maybe you will never come along, maybe you will never  read these letters. But that isn't the point. I'm confident that I could 'win over' numerous guys right now if I so chose to do so, but that's not what it's about. The end goal isn't about having a man by my side, yes, sure, that would be great. But it's not about getting a man, it's about having an incredible man of God who loves Jesus more than anything and makes His love known. Who is firm in his beliefs, who knows who he is and whose he is, who is surrendered, who will lead me spiritually and physically. A man who will do that, is worth waiting for. And if you never come, so be it. But I don't think I'm asking too much. So I'll keep on asking. 

Always, hannaH 

You see ladies, that man may never come for me, or for you, but if he doesn't I'm learning to be okay with that. The end goal isn't to have a man, the end goal is to have a man of God. I want to care more about why I marry, not who I marry. Marriage is a blessing from God, and can be used to bring Him much glory if you can exemplify Jesus through it together. Is the man you think is "the one" someone who can make that possible? You see, I used to have a lot of ideas about the kind of man I'd marry, but I've largely given those up. Because I know if I marry a man who is so in love with Jesus, who is teachable, humble, and passionate about the things Jesus says is important, I could marry that man with no regrets, and it wouldn't matter where he lived, how he dressed,  a hippie, a farmer, a skater, no matter. He would be a man I could follow because he follows Jesus. And that's what I want. That's what I want for you. Don't give in or give up. You can say no. Follow Jesus and it too won't matter if that man never finds you. Know who you are and whose you are, no man should  replace that.