Truer Than You

 Lost and learning

Confused and yearning

I know what I possess 

And What I confess

Seeking it out is where

The lines blur

I want to have the same standards

I struggle to define

Watching after Jesus 

With every part of my being

That I hear not only when I’m 

Praying

Striking out 

Even if I don’t know the meaning

This living between Heaven

On earth and 

A kingdom yet coming 

I see it clearly 

Intentionality and perceiving 

But how it gets mixed up in the 

The daily living and trying 

Now the daily dying

Is mystifying 

People remember 

What you think little

They’ll hold onto forever

Longer than your memory recollects

I miss it 

To be honest 

Taking a gifting and letting it go 

Untouched or unnoticed 

Thinking you lack the opportunity 

When really it’s the community 

Feeling afraid to fail 

The eyebrow upturned 

You know it well

What happens if your stories

Were the starting of the grand jury 

Normalcy and translucency 

We hold onto belief 

Tried and true 

Until it is tried and truer 

Than you

I want to stir the pot

The oil’s at the top 

But the base of it waiting to be brought up

I reread my own post from almost a year ago titled, Where I’m at and it was still pretty true for today. I was challenged. Hope you are too. 

Much love with courage for today friends, 

hannaH