Quick Synopsis- Life - 6 Week Recap
Well folks, I am officially 1/4 of the way through my program, I've been in Alaska for 6 1/2 weeks, with 18 weeks left of classes. I sat down with the intention of trying to express to you just one of the thoughts, subjects, or topics I've thought on recently, but just couldn't begin. So here I am trying to give you a quick synopsis. I've written more notes than I know what to do with, which makes it nearly impossible to condense. I've had others speak to me on the foundations of midwifery, what it means to be a midwife, what midwives need to know, but more importantly: that prayer and intercession must be the first tool of a midwife, and everyone. I've heard of the heartbreaking numbers of mamas and babies that die. I've heard of heartbreaking stories of mamas that don't know they have a choices or weren't given them inside my own country home. I thought again and again that we are not made to live in fear, but God gives grace, freedom, and greatness. Maybe I need to give myself a little more grace as well. I've learned about God's heart for women, and had to form my own opinions on large subjects. I've had discussions on feminism, gender, the Bible, culture, and lots of issues going on around the world. I've learned some on prenatal care and studied the anatomy of fetuses, women, and mothers. God is incredibly creative and His design is flawless. I've been blown away by hormones(the knowledge of, not just experiencing them, haha). So. Crazy. I've just barely touched on breast feeding. I've looked into world views, how nations rise and fall, community development and assessment concepts. I've learned how to be a doula, techniques to apply, and many more continued thoughts to process on birth positions and plans. And this week we began to skim the surface of nutrition. Which I still need to process further. I want to practice what I preach and think I myself need to make some changes, and give some things over to Jesus.
Phew. That's been six glorious weeks full of many a thought, lesson, tears, laughter, long days, short weeks, more reading than I have done in a long time, and learning not just what I believe, but continuing to ask WHY.
In the last six weeks I have also been filled with a greater desire to know and be known by others and my Heavenly Daddy. I have prayed more Spirit-filled prayers than perhaps ever before. I have realized how much I have not recognized Holy Spirit working as much as I ought. I have learned more about myself. And am working to change some things I don't want there (Side note: if you know of things in my life that also need to be changed, PLEASE do the loving thing and tell me, I have been thinking quite a bit about how others can help you grow). I have conquered some lies of the enemy, worship and thankfulness always plays a part in that defeat. I have almost gotten used to the constant snow and cold, but have probably put on a few winter pounds in the process. I have wanted to be intentional. I have been vulnerable, and have received openness in return, I am beginning to break some ground in true friendships, have been encouraged, loved, and have spent some time with ladies who I seriously think may just change the world.
And I still have no better idea what all will occur after this than I did at the beginning, but I know that I'm supposed to be here. Even if it was to just experience the above, it would be worth it, but I'm believing that there's a much bigger story taking shape. Besides, most of the greatest things in my life have never made sense, so why should I expect anything less? :)
I want to continue to learn, embrace each new day, live life to the fullest, be challenged, think deep and hard, give love away like I'm made of it, and know how to express my own needs. I don't want to care what people think of me, and be more of who I really am. I don't want to be negative or disappointed if there is something I can do to change it or the situation.
That's not a lot is it? Just a quick synopsis. Shoot Dang.
I love life, I love that this is the life I get to live, I love that these are the things that are currently filling my life.
I hope you find that that is true for you as well, friend.
With all this crazyness and joy this heart can muster, from my heart to yours, hannaH
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Phew. That's been six glorious weeks full of many a thought, lesson, tears, laughter, long days, short weeks, more reading than I have done in a long time, and learning not just what I believe, but continuing to ask WHY.
In the last six weeks I have also been filled with a greater desire to know and be known by others and my Heavenly Daddy. I have prayed more Spirit-filled prayers than perhaps ever before. I have realized how much I have not recognized Holy Spirit working as much as I ought. I have learned more about myself. And am working to change some things I don't want there (Side note: if you know of things in my life that also need to be changed, PLEASE do the loving thing and tell me, I have been thinking quite a bit about how others can help you grow). I have conquered some lies of the enemy, worship and thankfulness always plays a part in that defeat. I have almost gotten used to the constant snow and cold, but have probably put on a few winter pounds in the process. I have wanted to be intentional. I have been vulnerable, and have received openness in return, I am beginning to break some ground in true friendships, have been encouraged, loved, and have spent some time with ladies who I seriously think may just change the world.
And I still have no better idea what all will occur after this than I did at the beginning, but I know that I'm supposed to be here. Even if it was to just experience the above, it would be worth it, but I'm believing that there's a much bigger story taking shape. Besides, most of the greatest things in my life have never made sense, so why should I expect anything less? :)
I want to continue to learn, embrace each new day, live life to the fullest, be challenged, think deep and hard, give love away like I'm made of it, and know how to express my own needs. I don't want to care what people think of me, and be more of who I really am. I don't want to be negative or disappointed if there is something I can do to change it or the situation.
That's not a lot is it? Just a quick synopsis. Shoot Dang.
I love life, I love that this is the life I get to live, I love that these are the things that are currently filling my life.
I hope you find that that is true for you as well, friend.
With all this crazyness and joy this heart can muster, from my heart to yours, hannaH
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