#PURSUED

Jesus completely touched my heart in a way that it hasn't been touched in a long time, in His quiet love He touched my heart in a way that I didn't know it needed. Jesus took me to coffee. Jesus is pursuing me, and I'm a wreck. A good heart-made-whole kinda wreck.

I was asked for the very first time to come up with a worship list. The YWAM base here and my MOM family worship together on Friday mornings, something came up, and somehow I was selected to create the list...I was asking Jesus what He wanted worship to be about tomorrow. I decided coffee was a good way to think these kinda things through...I said good bye to my roommate with a parting sentence of "going to coffee with Jesus." As I was walking out the door, she quickly came forward with a hand full of dollar bills. "What are you paying me for?" I asked. She matter of factly responded, "Jesus is a gentleman. And you're worth pursuing too." 

We had been talking earlier about weddings and relationships. I had been expressing to them about a dear friend of mine who was going on the sweetest date, this guy was doing it right...ok, so maybe coffee and beauty and the beast was involved. But it had me smiling so. I had dismissed it almost immediately, but it still was an ugly thought nonetheless: when will it be my turn? I'm tired of saying 'goodbye' to friends that get caught up in all this giddy boy business....That's where I stopped it, and that's not entirely what I think, but it was a thought in the moment nonetheless. I know that I know that I know that Jesus loves me (and I hope that you know that I absolutely love a beautiful love story). I know that I know that I'm worth it. But sometimes your heart needs to be reminded of it. Sometimes your heart needs to believe it in a way that's different from your brain.

I am being pursued. I don't have to meet Jesus for coffee, He takes me to coffee, and pays too. I am being pursued by the worthiest of all worthy men. What even. I don't have to wait for "my turn", because my turn is now. He tells me I'm worth it. I am His beloved. I am His. I am so extravagantly loved. And all of that breaks all the small lies that the enemy tries to blow over me like dandelion fluff.

And I so I spent a couple hours sitting in the sun, in a coffee shop drinking coffee, looking at the mountains, listening to song after song of His relentless pursuit, asking Him to take my heart and speak what is true, to take a moment and think of who God is and who I am, how incredibly beautiful it is that He is my treasure, my reward, my joy, that His love is fierce, something that I can't even fully describe, like a hurricane, unstoppable, and that I am pursued with power and glory. And all of that? It's not about me. It's about Him, my Jesus. That is His character. His love. His pursuit. And I'm gonna make sure that you know that His love is the bestest. That you are His. That YOU are pursued. That YOU are worth it, oh so worth it, friend. Jesus is such a gentleman and I'm all sorts of giddy. It's a love that I don't deserve, and my heart is full. And #pursued.


...in case you too wanted to spend the next 30 minutes listening to the best playlist that Jesus and I could come up with today, this might be a good place to start....