Behind it All

In case y'all forgot what I'm actually doing up here in the vast North, it's not all just adventure and mountains...here's the heart behind all this. And it was a good reminder to think on as I walk into the next season way too soon. We as a class were asked to spend some time with Jesus and or process and come up with answers to the following questions today....my answers are mostly short and sweet, but as always, I'd love to talk to any one of you more about it.

•WHY DID YOU ORIGINALLY DECIDE TO BECOME A MIDWIFE?
Because I made a commitment; and God grew the dream larger than I had planned. Because Alaska. Because of the words others have spoken over me. Because I want to be useful, in an area that I'm in love with.

•WHAT IS YOUR ULTIMATE GOAL IN BECOMING A MIDWIFE?
Living life with. It's always been my greatest joy to live life with others. No agenda, no plan, just living life, on the daily, where they're at. Midwifery is just that. And--bringing life where it would be lost, and letting the lost know that there is Life Abundant. It's beauty and an honor, and an area where truth has been lost.

•WHY WOULD YOU MIDWIFE THE NATIONS(what's the ultimate purpose)?
I choose to midwife the nations-and mind you we all live in a nation-because there's a labor that started long ago. There's a pain that God feels. He is separated from His children and longs and years for them. He has placed His heart in me, and the laborers are few.

•WHAT IS YOUR WORD FOR THE UPCOMING SEASON?
This is a building off of and continuation of the words Jesus has already given this year, but the word is: DEPTHS.
Our God is a God of NO LIMITS, there's always room for more grace for ourselves, receiving His grace, He daily gives MORE of Himself, and we are FILLED because the Spirit draws from the DEPTHS OF GOD. How wide and deep is the love of God, and He continues to pour into our lives and fills each space with His presence.
-John 1:16- "For of His fullness we have all received, and grace upon grace."

....and this is only for those that truly have hearts for this. I'm not asking for donations, gifts, charities, or for you to feel guilty. He has asked me to be humble. I already know that He who is faithful will complete the work He has started. I know that I get to draw from His abundance, and there is no lack. I'm not worried one bit where the money will come from. But! If you feel like any of this craziness is something God and God alone is placing on your heart to give towards, soon I will need to start making occasional, scheduled payments for my apprenticeship as I step forward in faith more scared and unsure than I have ever been in my life. But if I believe that this is where I should be and that God has a plan for this, I need to continue to take steps towards that. And right now that looks like committing to a two(ish) year apprenticeship here in the states. I realized and never knew that I'm scared of contracts and commitments, I want to do anything but plan to live(work, and learn) back home for longer than seems necessary...but Jesus told me sometimes it takes more courage, more obedience, more faith, diligence, joy to say yes to staying and waiting than going. That doesn't seem or feel exciting, but that's what I believe my yes is to, in the now. If He so decides to change that plan, that's out my hands- for now I say Your will, Your bill. My life, my all.

And if you find yourself in that place friend, take courage, take heart. He won't leave us there.

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